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Rated NC-17

We arrived back in the Alpha Quadrant just a few short weeks ago. He and I were separated all through the court proceedings. Only seeing each other in the courtroom. Everyone thought I was visiting him on the days I went to the detention center. What most people don't know is that Starfleet and the Federation wouldn't let me within 1000 meters of him. I could see the other Maquis, just not my Commander. The day of the verdict, Starfleet relented and let me see him. They gave me 5 minutes with him, but insisted I have a guard in the room with me. They were afraid he'd try to hurt me, but I knew he wouldn't ever harm me. After the verdict was read and he was free, Mother did all in her power to make me realize just how much I loved this most magnificent man. I'm most definitely glad she did.

Rolling over I bump into something warm and solid. I grimace at the pain I feel, but it's a pain brought on by pure pleasure. I used muscles last night I haven't used in years. A smile comes to me lips as I remember the night before. The way our bodies fit together. Not knowing where one ended and the other began. We spent hours dancing the oldest dance known to man. I've always known when we let our passion flow it would be magical. I wasn't disappointed. He is the best lover I've ever had. He was more concerned with pleasing me than his own needs. I also remember him asking me to marry him, and the sensation of delectation that gave me. Not wanting to open my eyes, for fear it is all a dream, I snuggle closer to the solid mass now in front of me. I know it's real when the strong hand that was on my waist, slips around me and pulls me closer. Finally opening my eyes, there's the face of the most wonderful man in the world. He looks so peaceful. There is a slight smile on his face. I know I helped put it there. Running my hand along his impeccable jaw line, down a muscular shoulder, before coming to rest on his exquisite waist. I can feel the silk boxers brush against my leg and the feelings start to stir up in me again. I know he prefers to sleep nude, but we decided in Mothers house we should at least put on the minimum clothing.

"Good morning, Kath. What time is it?" He struggles to say coming out of a peaceful sleep.

Kissing his nose I reply, "It's still early; about 0245 hours. What are you doing awake? I figured I wore you out last night."

Chakotay just laughs and pulls me closer to him. I hear him moan a little. I know his muscles are screaming also. "Oh my. I forgot how many muscles it took." He stated.

"Yeah, I'm a little sore myself this morning. But, I'm so glad Mother pushed me to admit my feelings." We wrap our arms tighter around each other and both drift back to sleep.

"Rise and shine you two." We hear as the curtains open letting in the bright fall sun. Mother is standing there looking at us with this silly grin. "It 's a beautiful day. If you don't have anything planned, I thought we'd go for a drive in the country. Kathryn, we haven't shown Chakotay the beauty of Indiana in the fall. The trees at Brown County should be beautiful right now. I heard they are at their peak."

Chakotay and I look at each other, both starting to laugh at the same time.

"What is so damn funny?" She asks us. Without waiting for a reply, mother heads for the door. Before closing it behind her, she adds. "Breakfast in 10 minutes."

We both head for the shower. After showering, in which it is my turn to pleasure him, we dressed and went downstairs for breakfast. Awaiting us is hot cakes, eggs, sausage and a big pot of coffee. Mom and Chakotay both knew I'd make a beeline for the coffee.

Chakotay bent to kiss Mother on the cheek, before taking his place to her right. "Good Morning, Gretchen. Breakfast looks delicious, but you shouldn't have gone to all this trouble. Toast and coffee would've been sufficient." He said fidgeting in his chair, trying to find a position that didn't make the muscles hurt.

"This coffee is heaven. I didn't know how much I missed real coffee until we arrived home. And the breakfast is wonderful." I say stuffing sausage patties into my mouth. "Oh Mother, Phoebe left a message. She and Bob have the day off today. Maybe we could all go to Brown County. Then we could stop off at Nashville for lunch and to shop. I know how you love those little shops. This will also give Chakotay a chance to get to know them better. They've only been here once since he got here."

After doing the dishes, and picking up Phoebe, Bob and Little Eddie, we headed south for a day in the country. The weather was just perfect for this kind of excursion. We had a bright fall Indiana sun. The temperature was cool, but not to chilly. We were comfortable in light weight jackets or sweaters. The trees that lined the roads in this small, rustic county were bursting with color; reds, yellows, oranges, and even some browns. Everywhere you looked there were glorious hues. I love this time of year in Indiana.

As we hovered along, I watched Mother, watch Chakotay. He had never seen anything like this growing up. Everything was so new to him and his expressions showed it. He had a constant smile on his face. I thought to my self 'those dimples are out in full force today'. His eyes sparkled as he'd see something new and Mother would explain it to him. I could see her eyes dance with pleasure, she was always excited to show someone something they'd never experienced before. When he would comment on the beauty of this place, or something he'd just seen, I could hear how moved she was. It was in her voice as she spoke to him and him alone. I was in awe of the way the two of them were getting along. It was as if they'd known each other all their lives. It was like she found the son, she'd always wanted. Oh, she liked Bob, but that relationship never really developed. Bob was always too busy to just relax and enjoy things as she did.

Let me tell you a little bit about my mother. She is a feisty; a petite woman in her mid 60's. But she's strong. No, not physically, but mentally and emotionally. She has a heart that's full of love. She's compassionate and giving, but she won't let you walk on her or those she cares about. She's opinionated, very opinionated. She's not afraid to tell you what she thinks or how she feels. Mother is soft spoken, but her vocalization demands your attention. She's a very regal and elegant lady, but she has a way of making even a hood rat feel comfortable. She can dress you down and you'll end up thanking her for it. This woman I call Mother is a complex woman, but simple all at the same time.

I'm pulled from my thoughts as the hovercraft comes to a stop. We have arrived. Off to our left is a huge old wooden sign that says, 'WELCOME TO NASHVILLE, INDIANA'.

Getting out, we all stretch. I can't help but notice just how handsome Chakotay is. He's looking around at the small town, where the buildings have been converted into shops. Mother takes his arm and says, "In the early 1900's, Nashville was transformed from a small town into the shops that you see before us. Most of the houses have shops in the lower floors, with people living in the upper floors. There are numerous restaurants, hotels, and all kinds of shops. From what I've been told they haven't changed a thing. It still has the old rustic look on the outside. But, they do have the new modern convenience on the insides. All right my children lets go shopping."

With Mother still holding onto Chakotay's left arm, he reaches over and takes my hand in his. Always making sure that I'm close by. The first shop we go into is a craft shop. Mother and Phoebe love these types of places. I go in and look around for a few minutes then go outside to wait. It is beautiful out. Chakotay follows. Once outside, he pulls me to him. Kisses me lightly and says, "Kath, do they have a jewelry store here? There's something we need to buy. Unless you've changed your mind since last night."

"No, I haven't changed my mind. I think I love you more today then I did yesterday. You know we have to tell Phoebe and Bob sometime. I also would really like to know how mother feels about us getting married." I say hugging him close.

"I know it matters to you what your family thinks. I'm glad that you feel close to them. I don't think we will have any objection from your Mother. I talked to her before I asked you. I figured your father wasn't here to ask, so I'd ask her instead." Came Chakotay's reply as the rest of our group came out of the craft shop.

We spent the rest of the morning going in and out of shops. It was fun, and the expressions on Chakotay's face when he would experience something new were priceless. Mother made it her mission to make sure he was able to see and do it all. Phoebe and Bob spent a good portion of the morning laughing at the two of them. I just watched, astonished. I've never seen either of them take to someone so fast.

Just before lunch, Chakotay had stayed outside this little clothing store. He'd offered to keep little Eddie with him. When we came out an hour later, Phoebe was the first one out the door, but she stopped just outside waiting for the rest of us to join her. Over on the end of the porch in a rocking chair sat Chakotay with Eddie cuddled up in his lap. They were playing some silly little hand game and both were laughing hysterically. As they quieted their laughter, We heard Chakotay say, "Little man get use to this sitting and waiting. Someday you're going to find that one lady who will blow you away. She'll make you stop dead in your tracks. Then Little Man, you'll do anything and everything to make her happy. Even sit outside a clothing store and wait." Having said that they went back to their hand game.

Phoebe, turned to look at me, and in a low voice she said, "Kathryn, you had better keep this one. Look how good he is with Eddie. He usually cries when we leave him, but he seems perfectly happy with Chakotay."

Bob walked up behind them and said quietly, but we heard anyway. "Eddie, the man speaks the truth, so you might as well get use to it while you're young." Both men started laughing. Mother, Phoebe and I walk to them. Mother asked, as if she didn't know, "Want to share your joke with the rest of us?"

Chakotay and Bob looked at each other and shook their heads. Chakotay reached for me and we started down the street. I heard Phoebe ask Bob again what they were laughing at. Bob's reply was, "It was a guy thing you wouldn't understand."

We decided to go to the Artist Colony Inn for lunch. As we strolled down Van Buren Street, I caught Mother watching Chakotay and I, not that we were doing anything inappropriate. As we walked along she just kept smiling at us. About half way to the Inn, Bob and Phoebe stopped at a store that displayed various children's toys and clothing. I watched as they went in followed by Mother.

Chakotay and I decided to stay outside. As I stood there watching the people, he grabs me and kisses me. After releasing me, he said, "Kath, I'm having a great time. It's so beautiful here. Thank you for sharing it with me."

Running a finger along his jaw line, I answer, "You're very welcome."

Observing him, I notice he's looking around. Suddenly he becomes still, a dimpled smile forming on his face. Turning to look at he, "Kath, I love you! Are you sure you want to marry me?" There was a questioning look on his face.

"Chakotay, I love you. Yes, I'm sure I want to marry you. I've never been more sure of anything." I respond. Pulling him into a gentle embrace as I look up and smile. On his face I see relief, amazement, love, but the one thing I see more clearly now is the peace. His face shows a peace I don't think I've ever seen. Grabbing my hand, Chakotay turns and leads me up the street. The next thing I know we're standing in front of 'Grasshopper Flats Jewelers'. Looking at me as we stand there, he remarks, "Come on, we might as well start looking. It may take a few days to find exactly what you want."

Twenty minutes later, we walked out of the store. I found precisely what I wanted. It is simple, but elegant. A 1-carat pear shaped diamond set in a plain white gold band. Looking at my beautiful ring, then at Chakotay, I said, "It is so gorgeous. I love it, and I love you for buying it for me." Adding with a mischievous grin. "Let's see how long it takes Phoebe to notice."

Returning to the children's store, just as the others were coming out. Mother instantly looked at my left hand, as if she knew. I thought to myself, How does she do that? Not saying a word, she smiles at me and winks at Chakotay. There is so much in her face, in her eyes. I see love, pride and pleasure in her expressions, but it's her eyes that tell me the most. Taking Chakotay and I by the arms, she calls over her shoulder, "I'm starving, let's eat. Bob, Phoebe are you coming?"

At the Inn restaurant, we're seated on the porch. We all felt it was too nice a day to be stuck indoors. Chakotay, being the perfect gentleman, held Mother's chair. He then moved to hold mine. After I was seated he bent, gently kissed me on the cheek and seated himself. To my left, even here he always is on my left. Letting me take the lead. After our order was taken, we all fell into light conversation. I couldn't help smiling, and looking at my hand, as it rested softly, entwined with Chakotay's in my lap. Standing out was my elegant ring, given with so much love, by my not so angry warrior. The conversation remains light and the waitress brings our food.

Phoebe, is cutting up Eddie's hot dog, as she asks, "Kathryn, would you please pass me the salt and pepper?"

Using my left hand, I hand them to her. She takes them and says, "Thank you." Then as if she'd been hit with something, she looks up at me. "Kathryn, put that hand back over here."

Putting my hand back where she can see it, Phoebe grabs it and exclaims, "When did you get this? I looked at your hands when you picked us up. You didn't have that on then. Details, I want details."

Taking my hand back and wrapping it around Chakotay arm, I answer. "Okay, calm down. Chakotay asked me last night. I said yes. He gave me the ring while you were in the children's store. Well, I picked it out while you were in the store."

Coming out of her chair, and around the table to hug me. Phoebe said, "I'm so happy for you. I guess it's to early to ask about plans?" Not waiting for me to answer, she turned to Chakotay, hugged him and added, "Congratulations! You'd better take care of her."

Smiling at Phoebe, He put his arm around me and said, "I plan on taking very good care of her." Planting a kiss on the top of my head.

"Don't worry, Phoebe. He's been taking care of me for longer than I'd like to admit. Most times I didn't even know it, until it was all over and done with."

Hugging him tightly we all return to our chairs, but not before Bob kisses me on the cheek and shakes Chakotay's hand. Through it all Mother just sat there watching us, amused.

Observing this, Phoebe turns to her and says, "Mother, what is it? You haven't said a word, aren't you happy for them? Aren't you going to say something?"

Mother smiled and turned to Phoebe. Taking her hand, she said, "Honey, you'll never know just how happy I am. I have two beautiful daughters. One is married to a man who loves her and treats her well. They have given me the most precious gift a child can give their mother; a perfect grandchild. My other daughter, we thought we had lost. Now she's back with us. She's found a loving and charming man, who wants to spend the rest of his life with her. Why wouldn't I be happy? I'm the most blessed Mother on the planet." Patting us both on the arms, she returns to her meal.

Later that day, Mother, Phoebe and I are sitting in the living room. Chakotay and Bob are outside, doing who knows what, and Eddie is asleep. Phoebe's doing most of the talking, while Mother and I laugh at her. Not one to sit for very long I get up and wander over to the window. Looking out I see the man of my dreams sitting on the steps, playing with the dog and listening to something Bob is saying. Suddenly he laughs, and as a reflex action I have to smile also. I love to see and hear him laugh. Those dimples will be my undoing. Phoebe walks up beside me, puts her arms around my shoulders, and utters, "Tell me about him, Kathryn."

"Oh Phoebs!" I say, patting her hands that rest on my left shoulder, as her head rests on my right. "What do you want me to tell you? Where to begin?"

Coming over to join us, Mother interjects, "Kathryn, I think Phoebe wants to know what is in your heart. Why do you love him, and we all know you do."

"Kathryn, love is written all over both your faces, every time you look at each other. I just want to know a little about the man who will be my brother-in-law. The man who has stolen my sisters heart." Phoebe asks, looking out the window.

Pulling away from her, I walk towards the fireplace on the other wall. Wrapping my arms around myself and smiling as my thoughts return to a place and time so long ago. Turning back to them, I start. "When we were first thrown into the Delta Quadrant and together, all we did was fight. Still I knew he was going to be special from the beginning. He sacrificed his ship to save Voyager. He has saved Voyager, the crew and myself more than once. He became my best friend, my confidant, and the one person, who even when angry with me, I could always on. Chakotay cared for and stood by me even when I lashed out at him for no reason. Even when he knew a decision I was making was wrong. I've known since New Earth, that he has had feelings for me. He never let them get in the way of his duty. He was always there making by burdens lighter. Taking care of things. Some things he did I wasn't even aware of. Tuvok told me about a lot of them when we returned. I am sure there are things even Tuvok doesn't know. I sometimes wonder where Chakotay got the strength, to do all that he did for the crew and me. He never once complained about any of it."

Walking back to the window to watch him again. He is sitting sideways on the steps, leaning back against the rail. He is talking to someone, but I can't figure whom. Bob came in a few minutes ago to check on Eddie. As I watch, I see him laugh. Gods, how I love his laugh. Then I notice on the step below him, is a portable communication board.

I am brought back to the room, when Mother says. "Kathryn, are you all right? You just suddenly seemed so far away." There is genuine look of concern on her face.

"I'm sorry. I wasn't really that far." I say as I take her hand, and give it a gentle squeeze. "I was just watching Chakotay, and thinking how lucky I am to be loved and wanted so completely by him. I never would have admitted I loved him, if it hadn't been for you, Mother. Thank you for making me open my eyes and see what I could have. That happiness was right in front of me."

Hugging me, she draws me to the sofa to have a sit. "You would have figured it out. I just gave you a little push. Finish telling us your story."

"Where was I?" I ask literally lost.

"You were telling me about Chakotay. I want to know about the man." Phoebe jumps in, moving to sit on the other side of me on the sofa.

"Oh, yes I remember. Well he is Native American. Every girls dream, he is tall, dark and extremely handsome. He can be very mysterious. He has the most incredible brown eyes. They are the windows to his soul. If he is unguarded you can everything, every emotion in his eyes. But if he has his command mask firmly in place, you can't see anything. His ears are OH, SO SEXY. I use to sit in staff meeting and just look at his ears. They are mismatched and imperfect, but do something to me. Then there is that smile!!! Oh, Phoebs, that smile. When Chakotay unleashes those dimples, how can I resist him. He uses those things to his advantage every chance he gets. He knows those dimples will be my undoing. He has a heart that is way to big. He is smart, funny, charming and exotic. He cares about people and they care about him. He is loyal to a fault almost. Chakotay is sensitive, when he needs to be, pushy when pushed. He has this calm air about him that helps keep you calm. He can be so damn understanding sometime you just want to slap him and tell him nobody is that understanding. He is faithful, trustworthy and..."

Bob steps into the room with Eddie. Laughing he says, "Kathryn, you make him sound like a dog."

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to keep rambling on." I say, blushing a little.

"Go ahead Kathryn, Finish what you were going to say, when my husband interrupted," Phoebe said glaring at Bob and laughing. "That man out there is no dog. Just look at him any woman would want him."

"Thank you, Phoebs. He is beautiful, If a man can be beautiful. Did I mention how sexy and erotic he is?" I am about to continue when the front door closes. There stands my handsome lover. All of us just stare at him.

"Talking about me?" He asks, with a smile that fades slowly as we all continue to watch him. "Should I leave? Did I interrupt something?" Turning around he says, "Maybe I will just go back outside."

Reaching for his hand, Mother smiles, "No, it is okay. Kathryn was just telling us how wonderful you are."

Getting up to stand beside him, I say. "Phoebe wanted to know why I love you. I thought I'd give her the highlights. We would be here for a month if I gave her all the reasons." Looking up I see him blushing and realize how uncomfortable he has become. "Oh, yes Phoebe, I forgot he is modest too." Hugging him and laughing, I question, "Noticed you were on the communicator. Is everything all right?"

"Yes, Kath, everything is fine. I was talking to B'Elanna. She and Tom are at Admiral Paris' house. Tom and his dad are finally getting along. They want to get together with us and some of the others for a few days." He states, moving to the overstuffed chair in the corner. Taking me with him, he settles me on his lap.

"Did you tell her? About us?" I ask, resting my head on his broad, muscular shoulder.

"I told her, you and I were together. I didn't tell her we were engaged. I thought you would like to be the one to tell them that." He replies softly.

After Bob and Phoebe, leave Mother says to us, "Why don't we order in. I am tired. She looks tired tonight.

Chakotay turns to look at her and says, "I would love to cook for you, if I may? I'll even clean up the mess."

"If you want to cook, it's okay with me. I thought you both might be tired also." Mother responded.

"I'm charged tonight. I had a wonderful time today. Thank you for showing it to me." He answers, pulling me to my feet. "Come talk to me while I cook."

As he begins to prepare dinner, we talk about Tom, B'Elanna, Tuvok and the other members of Voyager's crew. I watch Mother as Chakotay works in the kitchen. First she looks in here every few minutes. Slowly she makes her way in under the pretense of seeing if Chakotay needs anything. I think she is just curious to see what he is preparing, and what kind of mess he has. Finally, she is fully in the kitchen with us. Adding her comments to our conversation and studying Chakotay. She smiles when she sees he is cleaning up as he goes along.

Putting dinner on the table. He says, "I hope you like it. It is an old family specialty."

"Smells fabulous." Mother says as she dips a plate full of the cornbread crust that is filled with veggies and a very tasty sauce. Tasting it she smile. "This is very good."

We eat in an easy silence. I think we are all beginning to let down from our fun filled day. Finally Mother breaks the silence, "Kids, I know both of you must miss your friends from Voyager. Being away as long as you were, they must have become your family and you theirs. Why don't you invite them here for a few days. You could have a grand reunion."

"Gretchen, thank you for the offer, but that would be to much work for you. There would be too many people. I wouldn't do that to you. We wouldn't do that." Chakotay said. You could see how much he had grown to care about my mother.

"Mom, that is so sweet of you, but there would be at least five more people. Six if Seven can get away. I know Neelix and the doctor won't be able to come, but that is still six more and with the two of us. That is eight extra people. Thank you, but I think we should find a place to have our party." I say to her.

"Now listen to me. You two can stay in Kathryn's room." She says this with a smile. She knows that since I had him in my bed one night, I was going to have him there every night. "Young Mr. Paris and his friend can stay in Phoebes old room. Mr. Tuvok and T'Pel can have the large guestroom, and the other young man can have the small guestroom. If your friend Seven comes, she can have the small room, and Mr..."

"Kim, Harry Kim." I say.

"Mr. Kim can have the den. All of you can help with the cooking and cleaning" She offers.

Looking at her, then at Chakotay, I sigh. "Mother, we don't want you to have to do all that work. To work that hard, and you will. That is just the way you are. You will do all in your power to make sure that the two of us and all our friends are well taken care of."

She looks away from us for a few seconds, then looks back. There are tears in her eyes, waiting to be released. "Kathryn, I am being selfish. I want you to have your friends her, because I'm not ready to let you go yet. I thought I'd lost you for so long. Now I have you home. I've met my future son-in-law, who is allowing me into his life with you. He's making me feel like he wants me to be apart of yours and his future. He has made me love him as if he were my on son. You two give me something I miss with Phoebe and Bob. Don't get me wrong, I love them both very much. But you two treat me as if you want me there. I'm not ready to have either of you leave me." I can see so many emotions play across her face.

Chakotay and I look at each other. I nod at him. He goes to her and pulls her into his embrace. In his calm soothing voice, he tells her. "It is okay. We will have them here. Kathryn won't leave you."

"I don't want you to leave yet either." Mother said before giving him a small kiss on the cheek and continuing. "I know that the time is going to come when both of you are going to have to go. Your leave will be up; Starfleet will want you both back. You are going to want to build your life together without this old lady hanging around, but for now I want you both here. Here, where I can enjoy and take care of you.

As I sit there with them I am in awe of the tenderness and affection Chakotay shows Mother as he responds. "Gretchen, No matter where Kath and I go, you're always welcome to be there with us. You are a part of Kathryn. That now makes you a part of me. My people have an ancient legend..." He looks up at me and smiles.

"NO! No legend. Mother, his people don't have a legend. He is about to make up a story. He has done this to me on many occasions." I laugh butting in.

"Kathryn, leave him alone!" She says playfully. Standing up as she continues. "I'm very tired. If you'll excuse me, I think I'll retire for the night." Giving us both a kiss, and hug, she heads up the stairs. Calling back over her shoulder, "Good night my children. I love you both."

After she had disappeared, I look at Chakotay and say, "I've never seen her this way. She should be use to people coming and going. My father was in Starfleet, he was gone a lot."

Pulling me to him and wrapping his strong arms around me, he says stroking my hair "Kath, remember, you've been away for a long time. She thought you were dead. Then she receives a letter that you're alive, fine and in the Delta Quadrant. Now she knows you're alive, but has no hope of ever seeing you again. Then a few years later, she gets news that Voyager has made it home; that you brought the ship and her crew home. It's understandable that she doesn't want to let you go just yet."

Holding on to him tightly, I say quietly, "I guess you're right. If it had been reversed I would want to keep her around for a while also." Pulling away slightly so I can look into his eyes, I continue a little louder. "And I didn't bring Voyager and her crew home. WE, You and I, together brought the ship and crew home. Don't you ever forget that. I wouldn't have made it without you. Is that understand Commander?!!!"

The days passed all to quickly. Mother, Chakotay and I prepared for the arrival of the senior staff. We were going to spend a week or two catching up on what has happened to each of us since our arrival home. I know most have been with their families. The day they are to arrive Mother and I are preparing the house, while Chakotay works in the yard, clearing all the leaves that have fallen from the changing season. I forgot how much I missed the season changes, how much I missed Indiana. I watch him as he puts the last bag of leaves in the recycler. I can't help but fall in love with him all over again. Looking at Mother I say, "Thank you for all of this. Tell Chakotay when he comes in, I'm taking a shower. He should probably do the same. That way he'll be ready when the others arrive. I know we have several hours, I guess I am just nervous." Turning I head up to shower and change.

Stepping out of the bathroom, I hear the other shower running and figure Chakotay is in there. Smiling to myself, I can see his firm masculine body, with its natural bronze color. I can see him just standing there letting the water run over him, relieving the fatigue I know his muscles must be feeling. Seriously thinking about joining him, there is a knock on the bedroom door.

Mother sticks her head in. "Kathryn, there is someone downstairs to see you."

Figuring it is someone who has arrived early, I reply. "Thanks, Mom. I'll be right down. I hurry and dress, apply a small amount of make-up. Not bothering to dry my hair I head downstairs.

Stopping dead in my tracks at the bottom step. It is not one of my senior staff. There stands Mark, and I presume that the lady next to him is his wife.

He looks over at me, "Hello, Kathryn."

Not really sure how to react or what to say, I move to a chair and motion for them to sit. Finally finding my voice. I say, "Mark, how are you?"

"I’m fine Kathryn, Thank you. I’d like you to meet my wife, Melissa."

"Nice to meet you, Melissa." That’s all I can say. I’m still in a state of shock. I can’t believe he is here. Mother helped out by getting the conversation going. Then Mark and I fell into it easily. Melissa seems like a perfectly lovely person. I must admit I thought she would be prettier, but she loves Mark. I can tell. After telling me all about how they met and their wedding, Mark asks, "What about you, Kathryn? Have you found someone, or are you still letting Starfleet and command protocol keep you from happiness?"

Just as I’m about to say something. I hear, "Kath, have you seen my white silk shirt?" There he stands at the bottom of the stairs. Dressed in a pair of tight black jeans, towel in his hand, drying his hair. I know he hasn’t looked at us yet. As he sees who is there, the towel drops to his side. I know he knows who it is by the look on his face. To reassure him, I go over and put my arms around him. Looking at him, allowing the love I feel to show, I turn to Mark and Melissa and Say, "Yes, I have found happiness. This is...."

Cutting me off Mark, spat, "Kathryn, everyone knows who this is. This is the rebel trash leader of the Maquis." His eyes are filled with hatred. Mark's eyes never left Chakotay.

I suddenly feel Chakotay tense. I see his expression change to one that is taking the defensive. His arm went around my waist in a protective manner.

Turning to look at him, I place my hand on his chest. "Chakotay, It’s okay. Go finish getting dressed. I’ll be fine, and I know you are right upstairs if I need you." Kissing and hugging him, I say as he heads up the stairs, "Your shirt is still in the guest room closet. I didn’t get everything moved over yet. If my opinion counts, I like the blue one better."

Turning to look at me from the top step, he smiles. I know when he comes back down, he’ll have on the blue one. He looks from me to Mark. There is a look of warning on his face that even Mark can’t miss.

Looking over at Mark and Melissa, I yelled, "What the Hell was that all about? Who do you think you are coming into my mother's house and treating my friend like that." I was angry and I didn’t care who knew.

"Kathryn, what is wrong with you? Why would you get involved with a criminal? For Gods sake, he’s a felon. If it wasn’t for him you and Voyager would never have been stranded in the Delta Quadrant all those years." As Mark is ranting, I notice out of the corner of my eye that Mother has stepped back in to the room.

In a calm voice, I say, "Chakotay, didn’t send us to the Delta Quadrant. The Caretaker did. As far as stranding us there, I did that all on my own. If it hadn’t been for Chakotay, we would have never made it home at all. He sacrificed his ship for Voyager. He has saved my life and the lives of our crew numerous times." I start to go on, when I’m interrupted.

"But if you hadn’t been on the mission to find and arrest him, you wouldn’t have been in the area to be taken there. How can you possible be attracted to a..." Mark was still very angry.

"Listen to me!" I demanded, trying to keep my voice calm. "Starfleet sent me on a mission. While on that mission, Voyager was sent to the Delta Quadrant by the Caretaker, NOT THE MAQUIS!!! I’m the one who destroyed the Array that could send us home. Out of necessity Chakotay and I merged our crews and became one crew. A STARFLEET crew. I made him my First Officer. For the last eight years, he has supported me. Stood behind me and beside me, even on decisions, he knew were wrong. He was the one force that kept the crew going that kept us all strong. Everything you have read about him these last eight years are completely wrong. The man you are reading about is not the man upstairs. Everything in the papers bears little resemblance to the man I know and have grown to love."

I look up stairs and see he is sitting on the top step staring at me. He has the most beautiful smile on his face and I can see nothing but his love for me in his eyes. I also notice he put on the blue shirt. Smiling at him, I turn back to Mark.

"Kathryn, I know you. This is so unlike you. You have more class and good taste then to get involved with that." Mark hissed as he turned towards Chakotay who was coming down the stairs. Then as he stood protectively to my left. I saw Melissa look at Mark and sigh. I knew what she was thinking. Mark continued, "I never thought you would be with a miscreant. He must be really good in bed!"

Chakotay tensed, and I rested my hand on his arm, to let him know it was okay.

Melissa looked at Mark in horror, unable to believe what she just heard. "MARK?" She shrieked.

Walking into the center of the room, Mother demanded, "STOP IT! Mark, why are you being this way? You don’t know anything about Chakotay, except for what you have read. Aren’t you the one who always told Kathryn not to judge people by first impressions? If you would give him half a chance, you would find a straightforward man, who is completely devoted to Kathryn. They didn’t admit that they even had feeling for each other until after the inquisition and verdict. As far as Kathryn, Mark, she is not the same woman who left here eight years ago. I like the new Kathryn. She is more blended and balanced. I think that has a lot of influence from Chakotay. I’d think you’d want to know her also, but to get to know and accept the new Kathryn, you must accept that she is in love with Chakotay. That they are going to be together." Turning she smiled at Chakotay and I. Planting kisses on our cheeks, she slowly walked out of the room.

"Mark, I’d like for us to remain friends. We’ve been friends for along time. I’d also like to get to know Melissa, and I want the both of you to get to know me. But in order for that to work, you have to try to accept and get to know Chakotay. If you make me choose, Mark as much as I love our friendship, I WILL choose the man who completes me, who is the other half of my soul, I WILL choose Chakotay. Do you really want to make me choose?"

"Mark, open your mind. Give your friendship with Kathryn a chance. All I’ve heard for 5 years is how great she is. Well, I want the chance to get to know her. I’m a pretty good judge of character, and I like Chakotay. Don’t throw way a lifetime friend, just because you’re pigheaded. Please, Mark?" Melissa pleaded.

The silence was almost unbearable, and it lasted a long time. I could feel Chakotay, become more tense as the minutes ticked by. I tried to relax and reassure him, by rubbing my hand up and down his back. It was beginning to work when Mark opened his mouth to speak. Instantly Chakotay stiffened again.

Looking at Melissa and then at me, Mark said, " Then I guess you and I can’t be friends. I refuse to spend time with a criminal, even if he is the lover of a life long friend. I hope you come to your senses, Kathryn. Before it’s too late!" Turning to Melissa, he finishes. "Let’s go! I thought I could renew a friendship I was wrong!" Melissa mouthed her apologies and they left!

As I watch them leave that’s when I knew that Mark and I were completely over and my decision to marry Chakotay was the most right thing I have ever done.

Realizing I’m staring at him, Chakotay asks as he takes my hand to pull me onto his lap. "What? What is it Kath? Why are you looking at me like that?"

Kissing him lightly, I answer. "No reason. I just love you so much."

"I love you back." Is all he said and he gave me a gentle hug.

I get up and head to the kitchen to make sure everything is set for our guests. Walking back in to the living room I looked at the chronometer. 2 more hours before the senior staff was scheduled to arrive. Chakotay is standing by the window looking out. I steel up behind, wrap my arms around his chest, and rest my cheek against his back. He lays his hands on top of mine. "Are you all right? I don’t know what got into Mark, I’ve never seen him act this way." I say to his back.

Taking my hands and leading me to the sofa where we both sit, he pulls me closer. So close I don’t think air could get through. He softly says, looking at Mother who has just come into the room. "Kathryn, He still cares about you. Granted he may be in love with Melissa, but he still cares about you. Mark was just trying to protect you from the big bad wolf."

"Well he’s made his choice. I can live with it as long as I have you!" I say running my finger along his jaw. Suddenly I reach up and pull his head toward mine. As our lips met, our kiss was soft and slow. Just as the intensity of this kiss increased I heard Mother giggle, then the door chime.

Laughing Chakotay and I both said in unison, "Must be Mr. Tuvok."

Giving me one last kiss he added, "Tuvok always did have the worse sense of timing." Getting up we headed for the door.

Mother had beaten us to it. Entering the house as we walked to the foyer, was Tom and B’Elanna. "I know we are early, but B’E couldn’t wait any longer to see the ‘Old Man’." Tom said giving me a hug. B’Elanna was already in Chakotay’s arms. We went into the living room as I introduced them to Mother.

As we sat down I suddenly realized how much I missed these two. I knew I missed the whole crew, but these two had been special. B’Elanna and I started out in a hate relationship. She blamed me in the beginning for stranding us in the Delta Quadrant. It took a long time for the two of us to become friends. Now, I feel she is like a daughter. I knew how much she meant to Chakotay, and even though I didn’t let it show until after we arrived back here, I have always loved him. From the moment he stepped foot on Voyager I loved him. Later I knew that if I was to ever have a relationship with him, I had to become friends with B’E. Now she is my best friend, well my best female friend.

Tom and I had a unique relationship from the start. I felt sorry for him in the beginning. Now I really enjoy him. He has become the baby brother I never had. He and Chakotay have become friends also. I think Chakotay knew he had to make that friendship work for both B’Elanna and I. It took them time, but today as I sit here watching three of the people I love the most, I know we must find a way for this foursome to stay together.

Tom and Chakotay began talking as if they had never been apart. I watched. B'Elanna must have noticed something in my expression, because when I turned to look at her, she was watching me. "What are you staring at?" I asked, beginning to laugh.

"I'm just amazed at how relaxed you are. On Voyager you never let down. I can see everything you feel in your expressions. You seem more at peace. Is it because you are here or something else?" B'E asked with a glint of knowing on her face.

"I think it's a combination of things." I answered looking at the one thing or should I say person that has helped me relax. Helped me find the peace I needed.

"Well, why don't you tell me about that combination? Does it have anything to do with the handsome man over there, talking to Tom?" She asked me looking at the men with affection for both shining in her eyes. They'd proceeded to the pool table in the game area at the far end of the living room.

Moving to sit on the sofa next to her, I looked to see what Chakotay was up to. He looked over at me and smiled. He knew what I was about to do. When did he grow to know me so well? Nodding his head, he turned back to the game. I turned my attention back to B'Elanna. I began to tell her all that had happened after the trial, up until now. I got up and walked to where the men were playing pool, rubbed my hand down Chakotay's back and told her the final piece. "B'E, Chakotay asked me to marry him, and I said YES."

Tom missed his shot, just as B'Elanna jumped to her feet. Running to where we stood, she hugged both of us and squealed, "It's about damn time you two finally stopped dancing around each other. I'm so happy for you both." Turning to Chakotay, "Have you set a date?"

Chakotay answered as Tom shook his hand. "No not yet. We are waiting to see what happens with Voyager and the crew."

"We wanted you two to be among the first to know, but please don't say anything to the rest of the Senior staff until later. I want to announce it later on in the week. Okay?" Both nodded their agreement.

The four of us continued to talk, play pool and catch up on the events that had happened since we returned. It was as if we were never separated. I looked at the old style timepiece on the mantle, and saw that it was time for the rest of the Senior staff to arrive. As if right on cue the door chime rang. Mother told us to stay put; she would greet our guests and escort them to us.

The next few days were the most fun I've had in... well forever. We laughed, cried, played, and even talked about the Delta Quadrant. The most moving moment of the week was the toast Chakotay made on our last night together. Even Tuvok became misty eyed. I remember it as plan as if he was speaking to me now.

It started with my toasting the people around me. Then Tom put in his two cents.

Finally Chakotay rose to his feet and began, "First, I toast to all of you and to the crew not here, for with out you we wouldn't have made it home. Next, I toast the Caretaker and the various aliens we met along the way. For those strangers we encountered made us stronger. Helped us pull together and learn to rely on one another. To face challenges no other crew in the fleet will ever understand. We made it through; we made it home. Our lives will forever be changed by our experiences. This is one thing we'll all share until the day we leave this life." He looked towards the heavens, raised his glass and continued. "Finally, I toast to all those, who didn't make it back. Those among us who gave more of themselves than was asked or expected. Those who gave their lives, because the good of the many out weigh the good of the few... or the one. They will always be remembered and hold a special place in our hearts. We will miss them."

Unable to control myself, I reached over and took him into my arms, and cried on his shoulder. I saw the others had found their own sources of comfort. Tom and B'E, Tuvok and T'Pel, Seven and Harry. The emotions of the last toast were written clearly on everyone's faces, a time of remembrance for our fallen colleagues. Even Mother was misty eyed. I watched as Chakotay reached over softly and pulled Mother into our embrace.

After a few moments of private remembrance by all, Tom finally broke the silence, "Enough of this silly emotional stuff, It's our last night together for a while. It's PARTY time." Everyone began to laugh.

I turned in Chakotay's arms so my back rested against his chest. He slipped one arm around my waist and held onto Mother with the other. Looking at my closest friends, I said. "Before we begin this party, Tom is speaking of, I would like to tell you something." I see them all stop and look at me as if I was about to give them an order. My trusty Senior staff. Chuckling, "At ease. I'm not the Captain this week." I let out a sigh, Chakotay who knows me so well, tightens his hold just enough to let me know that he is there with me, I also feel Mothers hand on mine. I continue, "I don't know why I'm making this so hard. What I want to tell you all, is... I'm sure you all have figured out that Chakotay and I have begun a relationship. But what you don't know, Well most of you, don't know is... He has asked me to marry him and I said yes. I really hope we have everyone's blessing."

Everyone was excited for us. Well I couldn't tell about Tuvok. He had his Vulcan face firmly in place. The rest of the night was one of laughter, and fun. Everyone had a little too much to drink. Around 0100 everyone decided to go to bed. Mother had long ago retired. As Tom and B'Elanna, the last to head up, climbed the stairs, I saw Chakotay begin the task of cleaning up the mess from our festivity. He walked into the kitchen with his arms loaded. I walked in behind him. "Well handsome, how do you think the week has been?" I asked wrapping my arms around his waist, but pulling back enough to look at him.

"I think it's been wonderful. I was worried about how they would react to us getting married, but they seem to have known it was coming." Kissing the top of my head, he pulls away and turns to look out the window. I know he does this when something is bothering him, when he needs to think.

Walking up beside him, I don't touch him. I've learned when he is like this, its best to let him work it out and he'll tell me when he's ready. I'm not sure what could be on his mind. When he glances over, I know it's time. Every softly I ask. "What is it?"

Lowering his head, he says in almost a whisper. "What about Tuvok? He's been very quiet about our engagement. I know how much he means to you and how much you value his counsel. He is your oldest friend. What if he doesn't approve? Will you still marry me?" I could see in his eyes that he already knew the answer, he just needed to hear me say it.

Stepping closer to him, and snaking my hands up his muscular chest, I reply, letting my love for him shine. "Yes, Tuvok is my friend and I respect his opinion, but I love you. To tell me now that I can't be with you would be like telling me I can't breath. He is my friend, you are my love and my life. So even if he doesn't approve, I AM still going to marry you!"

Kissing me with a tenderness, that took my breath away, I knew my life was complete. Parting, we hugged and Chakotay walked me to the door, before saying. "You go on up, have a hot bath and relax. I'll finish here and be up in a few minutes."

I turned and headed for the stairs, I was side tracked by a noise and a shadow moving to the kitchen doorway. As I watched Tuvok, went into the kitchen. Moving so I could see and hear, but where they couldn't see me.

Tuvok walked over to where Chakotay was putting the last few dishes away. "Commander, may I speak to you a moment?"

"Tuvok? What can I do for you? Please call me Chakotay."

"I would like to talk to you about the Captain and her decision to marry you." Tuvok said emotionless.

Chakotay turned to look at him and gestures for him to sit. "Would you like something, maybe some coffee?" Tuvok shook his head, and Chakotay continued. "Don't you think you should be having this conversation with the Captain?"

I couldn't see the expression on Tuvok's face, but Chakotay smiled and sat down. "Okay, Tuvok what would you like to say to me."

"Commander! Chakotay, I know you are concerned about my reaction or lack of reaction to the news of your upcoming marriage." Tuvok started.

Chakotay interrupted, "What makes you think I'm concerned. I haven't said anything."

Raising an eyebrow, "Chakotay, I've served along side you for years. I know how your mind works. You think a lot like I do. I know you and I have not always seen eye to eye, as the Captain would say. But I have grown to respect you and I've known for several years that you care for her, as more than just your commanding officer. I also know that she wasn't going to let anything happen between you as long as we were in the Delta Quadrant. That doesn't mean that I didn't see the way she looked at you. She has been in love with you for a long time. Kathryn was just too stubborn to admit. I saw the lingering glances, the touches that lasted a little longer than necessary. Neither of you breached protocol, but you bent it a little."

"What are you trying to say Tuvok? Just say it, you've never been one to circle an issue." Chakotay said.

"I just want you to know that Kathryn is my oldest friend. I have been loyal to her for years. I want her to be happy. I have not always agreed that you were the best choice for her, but seeing how she has been these past few days, I see I was mistaken. I've come to realize you are exactly what she needs. I wish both of you all the best and want you to know if I showed emotion, I would be very happy for you." Tuvok stood and shook Chakotay's hand. Turning towards the door way, he said. "Captain, you can come in now. We know you heard every word."

I stood and walked out of the shadows. Chakotay laughed and Tuvok raised both eyebrows. I hugged him and told him thank you. He turned and went upstairs. Looking at Chakotay I said, "Well you got your answer. Are you feeling better now?"

"Yes, I'm happy, but not because of Tuvok. I'm happy because of you." Pulling me to him and wrapping his arm around me we headed up for a couple hours sleep anyway.

The next day we saw our friends off. Everyone decided to meet in San Francisco on December 23rd for a Christmas celebration. By then we would know if Voyager was to be recommissioned and if we would all be reassigned to her. After the last of them had left, I walked into the living room. Mother was sitting there watching me. I moved to put things away, we left out the night before. Everywhere I went her eyes followed. Finally feeling like I was being surveyed, I said. "What? Why do you keep looking at me that way?" I was really getting spooked.

She continued watching me, while remaining silent. After several minutes, Mother reached for my arm and said. "Kathryn, sit. You've not stopped all week. You and that man upstairs out did yourselves. From what I saw your friends had a great time."

"Do you really think so? It may have been because they were with their Captain, and they've always said they had to keep their Captain happy." I questioned.

"Kathryn, the woman that was here this week was not their Captain. The woman I saw was their friend. The person I saw was relaxed, funny, charming, more at peace than I think I've ever seen you."

"And you think it was because of them?" I quizzed.

"No, not because of them. I think they all saw how informal you were and they relaxed. That made the week more fun for all." She responded.

"I'm not sure what you mean. I don't think I'm any different than I've always been." I countered.

Laughing a little, "Kathryn, you are completely different. You are even different than when you arrived home. You're happy and that shows. I think a lot of that has to do with the man up those stairs." We both looked up to see him sitting on the top step playing with a Padd. He isn't even paying attention to us. He is so engrossed in what he is doing.

I throw a pillow up at him as he raises his head. "What was that for?" Chakotay asks a little startled. The expression on his face was priceless.

Both Mother and I begin to laugh. It has been a good week.

Time began to pass quickly. Chakotay had to go to Ohio for a couple weeks. He asked me and Mother to join him but with the up coming holidays, we decided to stay in Indiana. I made him promise to call me every night, which he did, and I missed him terribly. I spent my days helping Mother prepare for the Holidays and waiting for his communiqué. Chakotay didn't get back for Thanksgiving and I was so alone, well I wasn't alone, but I felt that way. I missed his presence, I missed his touch, I just missed the man I love so much. I saw how much Mother missed him also. Everyone knew how unhappy I was, and did all in their power to help me and keep be busy. Phoebe talked me into going shopping with her and Mother on Friday. Just as we were getting ready to leave, the door chimed.

Mother said she'd get it since I was helping Phoebs get Eddie together. As Mother stepped into the living room, I asked, "Who was at the door?" When she didn't answer I looked up from what I was doing to see her smiling at me. Mother stepped aside and Chakotay came around the corner. I was in his arms in one step. He lifted me off the floor as our lips met for a passionate kiss. Sitting me back down, he kept his hold on me.

Phoebe smiled and came around to hug him. Looking at me she asked. "I guess shopping is off?"

Chakotay pulled back a little and said. "Have plans for today? Don't cancel them on my account. I'll just hang around here and read or something."

Looking at him like he had completely lost his mind, Mother exclaimed. "Young man, you will not spend your first day back alone. You will put your things upstairs, grab your jacket and come with us." Sensing he was about to protest, she continued, "I know you and Kathryn want to spend sometime together, but you can do that later this evening. We all need to shop for Christmas and I will not take NO for an answer."

Raising my eyebrow at him, Chakotay begins to laugh and pulls Mother into a gentle hug. Turning to me he says, "I've missed this lady. Come with me while I put my things away?"

Once we reached the bedroom, all thoughts of putting his things away vanished. We almost attacked each other. We were all lips and hands. "Gods, how I missed you." He said as one of his hands found my right breast.

Beginning to breathe more rapidly, I asked playfully. "Is it me you missed or the sex?" I am unable to keep my hands off him.

Trying to sound hurt and failing completely. "Kathryn, You know it's you and only you. How could you ask me such a question? The sex is just a perk." He is completely laughing now.

Pulling away from his embrace, but caressing his cheek, "Gods, how I missed that laugh. We'd better go before they come up after us." I kiss him again and add. "But tonight you are all mine and I intend to make you never want to leave me again."

After several hours of shopping, we decided to break for lunch. Phoebe pulled me aside and said. "Kathryn, you know you have a jewel there don't you. Chakotay is the first man, I've seen who will go shopping and not complain. He hasn't said one negative word all day. If it was Bob with us, he would be grumbling and gripping, but Chakotay seems to take it all in stride."

Looking at him talking to Mother and holding Eddie, I reply, "Phoebe, that's just the way he is. He's so easy going and laid back nothing seems to bother him. He told me today, when we were up stairs, that as long as we are together, he'd do anything I asked and not complain. I think a lot of it has to do with the fact we've been apart these past few weeks."

"Maybe, but I think you just got lucky. I think you found the last good man left on Earth, and you had to go to the Delta Quadrant to find him." We both begin to laugh, but I can't help but think she may be right.

"Phoebe, I'm so lucky! He never gave up on us or on me. He put his emotions and feelings all away and let it happen when I was ready. He has always been there for me, holding me up even when I didn't realize it. He's been the most supportive man I've ever known. I love him so much. I'm glad Mother made me see that," I say not taking my eyes off the man I love. He and mother are so good together. I am in awe, as I watch the way he is with her, but then Chakotay seems to have charmed my whole family. Even Eddie took to him and Phoebe says Eddie doesn't like anyone. He is not real fond of me, unless Chakotay is with me. I laugh to myself at that thought. MY nephew likes my lover better than me, his Aunt.

Later that evening, Chakotay and I were cuddled up on the sofa, with Mother in her chair to the left of us. We would hug and kiss, sometimes letting the passion almost get the best of us. At those times, Mother would just give us this amused cough and chuckle. One time as we broke apart from a long and fiery kiss, she was staring at us with this expression, I'm not sure how to describe.

As she looked at us I saw a wide range of emotions. Her face displayed love, excitement, amusement, admiration, but the one thing I saw that frightened me was pain. Chakotay must have seen it also, because he released me and was by her side in a nanosecond.

"Gretchen!? What is it?" Concern clearly all over his face. I moved to stand beside him, taking her hand.

"Mother, are you in pain?" I ask, just as she begins to laugh.

Patting us both on the arm she said. "It's okay, my children. I was just remembering. Watching the two of you brought back some good memories and some bad. But really I'm fine."

Chakotay took her hand and asked. "Would it help to tell us about it? We'd be more than happy to listen!"

Sitting back in her chair, she began." Watching the two of you, I remembered how much in love Edward and I once was. We couldn't get enough of each other. Little things meant so much, like a touch or a look. All the things I see in the two of you. Things I've never seen in Phoebe and Bob or any other. You two are so open, as Edward and I once were. Not afraid to show the love you feel for one another. There is a passion that burns deep within you that I haven't seen since I was a girl. Edward and I tried to keep that passion alive, but with Starfleet and their demands somehow we lost it."

I know I must have had a look of shock as I relayed my thoughts. "Mother, I always thought you and Daddy had a good marriage. There were never any signs of problems."

"Kathryn, I never said there were problems or that our marriage wasn't good. Even in the worst of times, I knew he loved me and I loved him. I said we lost the passion. It came from him being gone so much, we drifted apart some, it was nobody's fault. We didn't really know each other any more. We were beginning to learn about each other again and finding the passion, when the accident took him from me. I know you love Starfleet, but I don't want to see those things happen to the two of you. When I look at you, I want to always see the love and fervency I see now. I want you two to hold on to each other and never let go. A love like yours is rare and if taken away it can't be replaced. My wish for you is that you always hold each other, show the fire, but most of all don't let anything, not even Starfleet come between you. Now I can see you need to be alone, so I'm going to bed. I'll see you both in the morning." Laughing as she climbs the stairs Mother adds. "Like either of you will sleep tonight."

Settling back into Chakotay's arms, I said. "I never knew. I always thought they had the perfect relationship. So I guess we should take her advice and hold each other." I smiled at him as my mouth found his for a kiss that burned deep within us both. As this kiss grew in intensity, I felt his hand begin to explore my body, as his tongue explored my mouth. Instinct took over and I placed my open palm over his growing member, feeling the heat. I knew in that instant that Mother was right. Neither of us would sleep tonight. Gently, I stroked the bulge in his jeans until it was rock hard. Running my long nail up the shaft, until I heard him moan softly. All the while he was undoing my blouse to take my already taut with desire nipples into the warmth of his mouth; first one then the other. Suckling and kissing them until I was on the verge of explosion.

Sensing this, Chakotay pulled his mouth away from my breasts and found the extremely sensitive spot behind my ear. Placing kisses and sucking on the skin, I felt my stomach tighten and the wave of pleasure begin. He continued kissing me on the neck until, I could breath no more. Gently pulling his lips away, he smiled down at me as he stroked my back to help ease me down from my sexual high. He knew he did things to me no other man could ever do.

"I see you missed me!' He said as his mouth captured mine again.

I reached for the zipper in his jeans and began to undo them. Delicately taking his erection from the fly of his pants, I admired how well built he was. His shirt was undone from earlier. Chakotay reached for me as I straddled him. Reaching under my skirt he ripped the lace panties from my body. Wadding them, he placed them in his shirt pocket. Once the panties were out of the way, I lowered myself to take him deep inside me. I was in heaven. The feel of his manhood buried deep inside made me feel like I was in heaven; I never wanted to let him go. Chakotay stood up easily, while remaining deep inside me. He began to walk and the feelings and sensations were the most pleasurable, I'd had in years.

Backing me into the wall, he began a smooth rhythm. After a few seconds, he stopped, kissed me hard and made his way to the stairs. Climbing them with us still attached, I felt the friction of him and knew I was on the verge again. He took one more step up and I exploded. Contracting around him I felt myself convulse in an all-consuming orgasm. I knew I couldn't voice what I was feeling, and my instincts told me I had to do something with my mouth. To keep from screaming in pleasure I bit down on his shoulder. He didn't even seem to feel it. He just kept climbing the stairs, kept the friction on my hard and throbbing nub. I had one release after another until he softly laid me on the bed. The bed that had become ours, no longer mine alone. He pulled from me to remove the remainder of his clothes, as I did as well. Naked and full of desire, I pulled him to me and whispered to him. "I love you. You just showed me how much you love me. That was the most erotic love making I've ever experienced."

"Thank you, I enjoy bringing you pleasure." He said with that dimpled smile that he held just for me. Seeing something in my eyes, he asked playfully. "What is it Kath? Tell me what you want?" He said these words as he placed two fingers deep inside my sex.

Seeing the desire in his eyes, I knew he would do anything I asked, and more than anything, I wanted hard, animalistic sex. I had, had passion, and tenderness. I'd been made love to and I knew I would be made love to again before the night was through. But now I wanted it hard and rough. Looking at him, I purred. "What do I want? I've had passion and sensual sex. I've been made love to. But Now I want..." Hesitating, I knew I was blushing.

Stroking my face he said. "Kath, You can tell me. If I have the power to give it to you I will. You don't have to be shy or embarrassed with me. Just tell me what you want, what you want me to do." He was so loving and so kind. I knew right then that I could ask him and he would give me exactly what I wanted.

"Chakotay, I know you love me. I know you want to make love to me as much as possible, but this once, I want you to not make love, but fuck me hard. I want primal lustful sex. Hard and rough. I want to feel you pound into me until I beg you to stop. I want the animal side in you to come out. Will you do that for me? Will you just plain and simply fuck me?" I could see the raw desire in his eyes and I knew my answer.

Not giving me the chance to say anything, He flipped me on to my stomach. Pulling my hips up until I was on my knees and holding onto the headboard. With his chest to my back, Chakotay grabbed my breast with one hand, captured my mouth with his and thrust his member deep inside me in one quick stroke. Pulling almost all the way out, he thrust back inside even harder than the first. He continued to pump in and out slamming his body into mine. I knew I wouldn't last much longer and I knew this spasm would be the strongest yet. This time I would take him to the world of ecstasy with me. One final thrust and we exploded together. Crying out each other's names as softly as possible, when you've just had the most explosive orgasm in the history of sexual intercourse. Lying beside each other we began to get our breathing under control. Chakotay held me tighter than I've ever been held before.

Turning on his side and resting on his elbow, he quietly asks. "Did I hurt you?"

Caressing his face and running my hands over his chest I snuggled as close as two people could get. Breathing in the scent of him and our passion, I replied. "You could never hurt me. Whether we are making love or having primal sex, I know my feelings are in the front of your mind and thoughts. I know how much you love me. You just proved it to me again. I've had sexual experiences tonight that I will not soon forget. And I look forward to more. I love you so much."

We made love two more times that night and fell asleep in the early hours of the morning, exhausted, but satisfied. Secure in the knowledge that we would do all in our power to keep the passion alive in this relationship.

Awakening to the sound of soft snoring in my ear, I can't keep myself from smiling. I've missed this sound. I know I need to get up, the timepiece on the dresser shows it's 0830 hours. I need to get ready to go to a baby shower for our neighbor. I feel him slowly turn so his nuzzles my neck, moving his lips softly to my ear, he whispers, "what time is it?"

Turning to kiss him, I answer. "It's 0830. I need to get showered and ready for the baby shower today. We need to leave by 1000 hours. I'd stay here with you, but I promised Mother I'd go."

Sitting up, he shook his head and replied. "Kath, go and have a good time. I'll be here when you get back. You don't have to stop doing things with others, just because I'm here. If you do I'll pack up and go back to Ohio!"

Throwing my leg over his, so I was straddling him, I kissed him hard and said, "Mister, you're not going anywhere. I have you now and we aren't going to be apart again." Climbing off him I went to shower.

Stepping into the bedroom after a long hot shower, he was gone. The bed was made and the clothes from the night before were all picked up and in the clothes hamper. Dressing quickly, I set out to look for him. As I reach the bottom of the stair, I see him. He is sitting on the kitchen counter listening to Mother. He is dressed in tight blue jeans, a white pullover shirt with the Starfleet emblem, with the buttons left open to see the tiny bits of hair on his tanned chest. His hair was still wet so I knew he had used the other shower to clean up.

Standing in the doorway, listen to their conversation. She is telling him about Daddy.

"Edward was a wonderful man, the love of my life. I knew the minute I saw him long ago, that he was my soul mate. He was a good father and husband. He provided well for all of us. His girls were precious to him, even thought he wasn't home much in their formative years. Kathryn was the one from the beginning he knew would end up at the Academy. Edward groomed her for it. He was so proud of her when she made it. He wanted so much for his girls."

I saw the look that passed over Chakotay's face. A look of questioning. Mother must have seen it to. She went on. "He would have liked you. He would have given you a tough time about leaving Starfleet and your position in the Maquis, but once he got to know you, he would've liked you. If he'd been there to see you walk off Voyager, you'd have earned his respect with out ever meeting you. You stood tall and held your head high. You were not ashamed of yourself and what you'd done. He would see the way you helped his little girl. He would see the effect you have on his Goldenbird and know that you are a good man." Reaching over to place her hand under his chin, she continues. "Just as I know you are a good man. Before Kathryn left on the mission that brought you two together, she was so different than she is now, She was more uptight and by the book. She gets that from her father. Edward was Starfleet to the end. He lived Starfleet; he died Starfleet. I know where ever he is he is smiling down on all of us. Yes, even you. He sees the effect you have on Kathryn. The way you love her and she loves you. You are the missing piece in her life and she in yours." Mother took his face between her hands, smiling at him and placed a soft motherly kiss on his lip, before hugging him.

I stepped in to the room, just as she released him. Smiling she said looking at me. "How long have you been there."

Moving to stand in front of him with my back against his chest, I replied. "Long enough." Placing my hand on his cheek, he nuzzled my neck. "Good morning, sexy! I came out of the shower and you were gone. Thank you for cleaning up and making the bed."

"Good morning to you, and you're welcome." He said hugging me tighter. Just then the door chimed. I knew it was Phoebe. I grabbed some toast as she walked into the kitchen, holding Eddie and looking frazzled. "Phoebs, What is wrong? You look upset!"

"This has been the morning from hell. Eddie has a cold. Bob was sent out of town for the weekend all of the sudden. The hovercraft wanted to stall when I got ready to leave. Now I have to take Eddie with us because, the baby-sitter for today canceled at the last minute." Phoebe said, sitting down with a crying Eddie.

Chakotay had a look of complete horror on his face as he walked over and took the baby from her. "You will not subject this baby to a room full of cackling women." Turning to Eddie, he continued as he walked into the living room. "You, little man will stay with Uncle Chakotay. If they take you you'll be scared for life. You're much to young to have to deal with all that. Hell! I'm too young to deal with that." Then he sat in the rocker and rocked, while talking to Eddie. The three of us watched the two of them for awhile. Finally Mother said it was time to go. I walked over and kissed Chakotay and thanked him for watching Eddie. Then we left.

Arriving home several hours later, we encountered a extremely quiet house. Wondering where the boys were, I walked into the living room. I stopped dead in my tracks. Phoebe ran right into me. Smiling at her I pointed to the sofa. There all stretched out was the most precious sight I'd ever seen. There Chakotay lay, with Eddie on his chest, both sound asleep. I knew at that very moment, that he would be a great father. I knew we would have at least one child someday.

Smiling I leaned over and lightly kissed his brow. He shifted slightly, but held on securely to Eddie. We decided to let both our boys sleep.

Time continued to pass quickly. Before I knew it the Christmas Holiday was upon us. We had agreed to meet the senior staff on December 23. Chakotay and I had a meeting with Starfleet on the morning before our get together. That meeting would tell us our future. We would know then if Voyager was to be refitted or retired.

We were to meet Admiral Paris and Commodore Nelson at 0930 hours. Upon arriving at Headquarters, Chakotay took my hand and said. "Kath, no matter what they decide, we will get through it together. Promise me you won't pull away from me."

Leaning in to softly kiss him I replied. "Never again, my love. I will never pull away from you. We will take what ever they decide together."

We were led into a conference room. I watched how Chakotay instantly became the perfect Starfleet officer when the Admiral and Commodore walked in. Walking around to the other side of the table, Commodore Nelson said. "At ease. Please have a seat. Can I get you anything?"

"No! Thank you." Chakotay and I said in unison.

"Well then! I guess there is nothing left to do but get right down to business." Looking from Chakotay to myself, he went on. "After careful examination of Voyager we have decided to retire her." My heart stopped. I could feel the tears begin to form. I felt Chakotay reach over and gently squeeze my hand. I didn't care where we were, I held onto him tightly.

Getting up to pace, the Commodore ventured on. "Captain, you and the Commander will be given your pick of any assignment. If you choose you may be assigned to a new ship. We will do all in our power to keep you as a team if you choose. I hear from Admiral Paris, that you two have recently become engaged. Congratulations!" Picking up an envelope, he handed it to me. "Here are all your options. Please take whatever time you need to decide."

"What about Voyager's crew? What will happen to them?" Chakotay asked the questions, I wanted to ask, but couldn't get the words to come out.

"Commander, Voyager's crew will be give their pick of assignment much like you and the Captain. If you have any suggestions please let us know." Having said that, the Commodore turned and walked out of the room.

After Admiral Paris had spoken to us and left, I looked over at Chakotay. He just sat there in shock, holding my hand. I could see tears forming in his eyes. This emotion was my undoing and my body began to betray my emotions. Gently he enfolded me into his arms and I sobbed for a long while. Finally lifting my head from his shoulder, I said, "My head knew this could happen, but my heart never thought it would. If I'm not the Captain of Voyager, then what am I? Who am I?" Laying my head back on his chest and pulling him tighter. "What am I going to do?"

Hearing him let out a long sigh, I realized I'd made a huge mistake. Pulling away from him I stroke his strong jaw. "I'm sorry, my love! This effects all of us. They are your crew also. I know this has to hurt you as much as it does me, yet you keep making things easier for me. I love you, so very much. We will get through this together. I can do anything as long as you are by my side."

Pulling myself together, we went to meet the senior staff. The hall we rented was decorated in all sorts of Christmas decor. There was a tree in the far corner that had to be ten feet tall. We laughed and enjoyed each other's company. Tom started a sing along of old carols and everyone told stories of Christmas pasts. We spoke of Christmases aboard Voyager. Chakotay must have sensed that I was about to get emotional, because he asked me to dance. The music wasn't dance type music. Everyone thought he was being romantic, but I knew he was helping me once again. I was much better after the dance. We had decided, or rather we were ordered not to tell the Voyager crew the fate of their past home. I knew deep down I couldn't keep this from Tom and B'E. But I also knew they wouldn't tell.

Tom and B'Elanna, as always, were the last to leave. They had really become Chakotay and my best friends. As the four of us sat there, Tom said. "Kathryn, you've been distracted all evening. You want to tell us about it?"

Looking at Chakotay, I answered. "I wish I could tell you, Tom. But I can't. I've had my orders."

Not looking up from the table B'Elanna said almost to herself. "Starfleet has decided not to refit Voyager. That's what's bothering her." Looking up from the table to me she went on. "That's it isn't it. You've been ordered not to tell us Starfleet is retiring Voyager?"

"Yes, that is what's bothering me, but you didn't hear it from us." I answered.

"What is to become of the crew? What will the two of you do?" Tom asked.

"Chakotay and I have been give positions of our choice within Starfleet. They promised that the crew would be given similar choices. If possible I'd like the four of us to stay together. I have the postings we can choose from. Maybe we could all get together and look them over. You could have an idea of what you want to do. I know it's against Starfleet, but they've pissed me off."

We talked for a while longer, before making our good-byes. Tom and B'Elanna promised they would come to Indiana on the 26th for a few days. Then the four of us could decide what we were going to do and begin to pick assignments.

Christmas Eve morning, I woke to the sounds and smells of Christmas. Stretching, I found Chakotay wasn't there beside me. His side of the bed was empty, and cold. That told me he'd been up for sometime now. Getting up, I pulled on my robe and went down stairs. I found him in the living room with Mother. She sat in her favorite chair, she was reading from something. Chakotay sat on the floor, by the fireplace, leaning back against the other chair. He had his eyes closed, but I could tell he was listening to her ever word. I sat on the bottom step and listened also, so I wouldn't disturb their time together.

As I listened, these are the words I heard:

"For so long I thought the day I married Gretchen was the happiest day of my life. Our wedding was wonderful. Starfleet formal, but down to earth enough for everyone. She is such a special lady. At this point in my life, I'd be lost with out her. I couldn't imagine being any happier than I was on that day. As our life together progressed, I found I was wrong. Each day brought something new. I learned something more about her and loved her more. Then the day came and she told me we were having a child. I was speechless, and she took it that I wasn't happy about it. I just didn't know how to express the joy she had just given to me. Finding my voice, I told her how incredible it was and I immediately called some of our friends. I couldn't believe it, me, Edward Janeway was going to be a father. This soon became the happiest day of my life. I tried to stay home as much as I could. To be there to help Gretch, and experience the pleasures of watching the baby grow, but being Starfleet, I still was gone a lot. She never seemed to mind. I remember the first time I felt our baby move. I was sleeping, and something fluttered against my back. I woke and there it was again. Rolling over I looked at her and she smiled at me, taking my hand she placed it on her swollen abdomen. Our baby moved several times, each time I felt the miracle that was forming out of the love we have for each other. That day I was the happiest I'd ever been. The last month of her pregnancy, I stayed home. Working from my den, being the nervous father. I worried and jumped up at every sound she made. I practiced getting everything together everyday. I wanted so much to be ready when our baby arrived. Gretchen laughed at me, telling me I was more nervous than she was."

At this point Mother stopped reading and looked over to Chakotay. "Are you sure you want to hear all this. It's just the rambling of an old man, read to you by an old lady?"

Smiling he answered, "Yes, I do. I want to know as much about the Janeway family as I can." Seeing me sitting there he motions for me to come sit with him. Settling between his legs and leaning back into his warmth, I turn my head and kiss him softly.

Mother laughs, "You two remind me so much of Edward and I when we were young. Shall I go on?" We both nodded as Chakotay tightened his hold.

"Everyday that passed the anticipation grew. Gretchen became more and more irritable, but I really couldn't blame her. I tried to comfort her, with back rubs and foot massages. Some days this helped and some day's it just succeeded in making her more irritated. The thing that seemed to help the most was just to snuggle up with her on the sofa or in bed. I think she just need reassurance that I still loved her. What I wasn't sure she realized was, I loved her more and more everyday. I felt the greatest gift she could give me was to have my child. When she saw herself as fat, I saw her as beautiful, and radiant. Gretchen had that glow you hear so much about. I use to think it was all rubbish, until she became pregnant. The week before the baby came, was hectic. I stopped working completely. I knew I needed to finish the baby's room. Gretchen stayed where I could see her most of the time. Telling me how and where to put everything. We washed all the new baby clothes, folded and put them away. We put all the toys in the appropriate places, hung the curtains and put up the baby border she had purchased the day she found out we were expecting. The night our first baby was born, was like most nights. We worked together to prepare dinner. Ate, talking about the baby. I would clean up while Gretchen relaxed.

Afterwards, we sat on the sofa and just held each other. The baby was moving a lot that night! Gretchen couldn't get comfortable, no matter what we did. Finally after a couple hours of fidgeting and squirming, we went to bed. At exactly 02:38 hours, she woke me. Told me it was time. At first I couldn't figure what she meant by that, but then it hit me. I jumped out of bed and ran around like my hair was on fire. Gretch just laughed at me as she got ready to go.

Once we got to the hospital, things progressed fast. I knew there was something about this baby. It was as impatient as I was. I knew, no I hoped it would grow to be something special. I use the word it, not out of disrespect, but because we choose not to know the sex until the child was born. Standing in the delivery room, I remember her calling me all kinds of names. I didn't let it bother me, all my friends said it would happen, but when the baby came all that would be forgotten. They were right. At precisely 6:17 our most precious baby girl made her appearance. Gretchen forgot all the pain and we welcomed Kathryn Marie Janeway to our family. From the very moment I saw her, I knew she was going to be as stubborn as I was. She was a beautiful baby, but she wanted no part of anything the doctors and nurses wanted to do to her. I fell in love with her the instant she opened those beautiful eyes at me. That day she became my 'Goldenbird'! That day, was the happiest day of my life. As I sit here watching my two most precious girls sleep, I feel contentment, peace and love. I love Gretchen more than I ever dreamed possible. She is my world, and now we have this marvelous bundle of joy. No man deserves to be this happy!"

I looked up as Mother closed the book. She had a tear in her eye. I could also see the love there. I knew even after all these years without him, she still loved Daddy with all her heart. As I sat there wrapped in Chakotay's arms, I only hoped the love he and I had could last as long as theirs. We all got up and went about preparing for Christmas. As the day went on, Mother would talk about Daddy and the rest of the family. She was trying to teach Chakotay a little about them. I think she hoped this would help him understand the way our family is.

Phoebe and Bob came by after dinner. We talked and laughed. Bob and Chakotay played with Eddie, while Mother, Phoebs and I worked on preparations for tomorrow's feast. The entire Janeway clan would be here. All the Aunts, Uncles and Cousins. I knew Chakotay was a little nervous. He hasn't said anything, but I could tell. He worries that people will have the same reaction that Mark had. Watching him as he plays with Eddie, I feel blessed to be loved by him. I wonder why it took me so long? I could have had this all along.

Mother, Phoebe and I join them in the living room. Mother tells us what she has planned for tomorrow. Not that Phoebe and I needed to be told. It's all tradition in the Janeway house. We start with a Christmas breakfast. Then we open our gifts from each other, and clean up that mess. Around 1100 hours the rest of the extended family starts to arrive. Mother explained all this for Chakotay. We all knew she did, but we listened just the same. I walked Phoebe and Bob, out. When I came back in Mother and Chakotay were sitting on the sofa. I just stood and listened to them. I love to watch the interaction between the two. Mother was showing him old photos from when I was a child. He watched and listened intently. Taking in every word she said.

I heard him say a couple times, "she was so cute". The longer they sat there the bigger his smile got. Then all at once he began to laugh. I knew at that moment that she had shown him one of my famous High School pictures. The ones where I tried to make myself look older then I was. Still laughing, he turned to where I stood and said. "Kath, what were you thinking? You were as beautiful then as you are now, why try to change yourself? Especially with the added makeup and hair style. You look like something out of the 18th century!" Mother started laughing and Chakotay laughed harder.

Swatting at him, I said. "If you're going to laugh at me, you can sleep in the guest room tonight!" Trying to move from his reach, I was unsuccessful. He grabbed me and pulled me down to sit on his lap. I began to laugh as hard as they were

"Kath! I wasn't laughing at you, I was laughing with you!" He said, before kissing me softly!

Mother quieted her laughter and got up. Heading for the stairs, She said. "I'm tired, I'm going to bed. Tomorrow is a big day and I'm not as young as I use to be! Don't stay up too late." Soon she was out of sight. Chakotay and I sat and talked for about an hour longer then headed to bed ourselves.

Christmas morning I woke to the smells of the day. I rolled over to find Chakotay was still sound asleep. I decided not to wake him. I knew this would give me time to help Mother and spend some time just the two of us. Showering and dressing, I went down stairs. Walking into the kitchen, I saw mother smiling and humming centuries old carols. Walking up behind her, I hugged her and whispered. "Good Morning, Mother! Merry Christmas."

Laying her hands on my arms, she replied. "Merry Christmas, my Angel! What has you up so early?"

Moving to the coffeepot and pouring some, I say. "I just woke and thought you might like some help. I also thought this would give me some time with you before everyone gets here. Besides, I wanted to let Chakotay sleep."

"Kathryn, he is such a special man. I'm glad you found him. He makes me feel like he wants me around, like I'm not just in the way!" She stated not looking up from her task.

"Mother! He loves you! I love you! You will never be in the way. No matter where we are, what we're doing, you will always be welcome to be with us. We both enjoy spending time with you. Chakotay told me again last night how much he treasures you. It makes him miss his own family I think, but he knows we are his family now!"

As the morning passes, Mother and I talk about everything. I realized then and there how much I missed my Mother. We finished the preparations for dinner. Looking up, I had to laugh, we were both covered in flour. Mother and I decided we should change before our guests arrived. Heading to change, we saw Chakotay standing in the doorway, smiling!

After changing the three of us decided we would exchange our gifts before the others arrived. Just as we were ready to do so, Phoebe, Bob and Eddie came in. So we exchanged with them also. Everyone loved their gifts. Mother gave Chakotay and I matching gold chains, with the others name embossed in them. He gave me a beautiful locket with our picture on one side and one of us with Mother on the other! He gave Mom a hand carved picture frame, with a picture of the three of us in it. I gave him a painting of his ship and Voyager with the array. It was a beautiful painting and he almost cried. I could see the emotions on his face. Just as the last gift was open and the trashed out away, our extended family arrived.

As they were introduced to Chakotay, I could feel him tense. We both knew that a lot of people felt the same way Mark did. I had one Uncle, Uncle Frank, who wouldn't even let Mother introduce them. I kept trying to reassure him that it was okay. No matter what happened I still loved him. As the day progressed, my family realized how much in love we were and how much he cared for Mother. The ones that had been rude in the beginning began to warm up to him. Standing at the window, I watched as Chakotay, and Bob played with my little cousins RB, 7 and Will, 3. The boys were laughing hard. They were building a snowman. I think this was the first time Chakotay had played in the snow. Suddenly RB started to pelt the two older men with snowballs. After the snowball fight, I watched as Uncle Frank walked over and said something to Chakotay. I felt my whole body stiffen in fear that someone would ruin this day. I knew Chakotay would let him say whatever he wanted, then walk away, but I also knew my Uncle, and he had a temper he sometime couldn't control.

As I watched, Mother slipped up behind me. "It's okay Kathy. Frank and I talked. He knows Chakotay is a fine man. He told me he could tell from watching him today. Frank is just out there apologizing. Relax, Baby!"

Time passed too quickly. After the Holidays, Starfleet needed our decisions on what positions we wanted. They said once they knew where Chakotay and I stood, they could make offers to the rest of Voyagers crew. I chose to stay at Starfleet Headquarters, working with their top scientists on all the information we'd gathered in the Delta Quadrant. I was promoted to Admiral. Chakotay was promoted to Captain and chose to teach tactical and weapons at the Academy. We bought a small house not too far from Mother. We spent a great deal of time with her. I think it would have hurt all three of us to not be together. We also rented an apartment in San Francisco, making sure there was a room for her. B'Elanna and Tom took positions at the Academy also. B'Elanna began working with Starfleet engineers, and Tom taught courses in piloting. The four of us stayed together, continuing the friendship we started on Voyager.

Other members of Voyager's crew took various jobs. Tuvok become Commander on the USS Locus. Harry was promoted to Lieutenant and also joined the crew of Locus. Neelix opened a restaurant in San Francisco, while Seven is learning her past and working with B'Elanna. Something we thought would never happen. Sam retired from Starfleet to spend time with her family. Naomi still says she'll be my assistant someday. Natalie chose to work with me at HQ, while Jordan became Chakotay's teaching assistant. Starfleet wanted to dismantle the EMH, but Chakotay and I talked them in to studying him instead. He has a new mobile emitter and lives with Seven and Neelix. The first few months were a transition period for all of us.

Chakotay and I finally set a date for our wedding and began to make plans. One day as we sat in a cafe' checking over what we still needed to do, we encountered Mark. He was still unaccepting of my relationship with Chakotay, no matter what I said nothing would change his mind. I was saddened that I'd lost my lifetime friend, but I knew I couldn't give up the man I loved. I decided then and there that I would write Mark and hope he could see things from my prospective.

Mother helped with all the plans. She was a valuable source of information. She was also there to do what Chakotay and I couldn't fit into out schedules. I knew we couldn't pull this wedding off if it hadn't been for her. I asked B'Elanna to be my maid of honor, and Tom was Chakotay's best man. Also standing up with us was Natalie, Seven, Phoebe, and Sam. Naomi was a candle lighter along with RB and Will. Groomsmen and Ushers were Harry, Bob, Jordan and the EMH. Neelix catered the reception. He chose to do traditional foods, no leola root. I asked Tuvok to give me away, and we asked Admiral Paris to perform the ceremony.

The day of the wedding arrived before we knew it. We chose to be married in the garden at Brown County State Park. I wore a flowing ivory dress with tiny pearls to match. I'd let my hair grow long. I wore it pinned up on the sides with pearl covered barrettes and streaming down my back. Chakotay chose to dress in a tan leather Native American outfit. The bridesmaids wore simple pastel dresses, just blow the knee and the men were in black trousers, white shirts and pastel ties.

We planned our own ceremony. Chakotay and I had written our own vows that included, Mother saying a blessing during them. Seven sang, then Tuvok and T'Pel recited a Vulcan marriage prayer. Admiral Paris was wonderful with transforming the traditional service into the one we wanted.

As I stood in that beautiful garden, I knew I was the most loved woman in this Quadrant, or any quadrant. I had my friends all around me, my family sharing this event with me, but most of all I had the man I adored. The man I wanted to spend the rest of my life with standing beside me. I was the happiest I'd ever been the moment he said, "I do!"

The reception was at the hotel in the park. It was in the dining area and in the courtyard off to the end. We had wonderful weather and Chakotay and I spent most of our time outside. It was good to see all the Voyager crew. Everyone laughed and had a good time. I stood talking to B'Elanna and Mother when I saw Mark walk up to Chakotay. Tom and Jordan stayed by his side, guarding him. Neither said anything, they just stared at one another. B'E, and I walked over to where they were. I reached for Chakotay's hand and held it tightly! "Mark, Please. This isn't the place." I said.

Never taking his eyes off of Chakotay, Mark quietly replied. "Kathryn, I'm not here to cause you trouble." Melissa walked up as he went on. "I would never do anything to ruin your wedding day; even if I don't care for your choice of mates. I just came to wish you well and to tell him, I still don't trust him, but I will try and work on it. It may take some time, if ever. I can't just forget all that has been said and done." He extended his hand and Chakotay took it. You could feel the tension break in the courtyard. The party went on.

Lying here wrapped in his arms, I hear him snore softly. That's a sound, I've grown to love and plan on hearing every night for the rest of my life. Today was a magnificent day. Today I became his wife. Today we showed the world how much we loved each other. This day we shared with family and friends. Some of those took steps to becoming a better friend. As I snuggle closer to my husband, I feel his arms tighten around me. I'm happier than I've ever been. Lying here I drift back to the message given to us this afternoon.

"Ladies and Gentleman. Today we are here to celebrate the union of Kathryn and Chakotay. I've watched them these past few months. It's rare to see a love like theirs. A love that has been held in check for so many years then allowed to flourish and grow. In the beginning it took a lot of talking to get them to let their feelings show, but once they did it was magical. It was like watching a fairy tale for those of us who were blessed enough to see them from day to day. Each new day was an adventure for them; learning new things each moment of every day. When you look at them you can see the passion in their eyes. When you are with them you can feel the energy. I'm ecstatic to have my Kathryn back home, and I'm thankful that she has found a man like Chakotay to love and to love her in return. I know they will be as happy as my Edward and I were together. These two remind me so much of us when we were their age. I hope each and every one of you will join me in wishing them a long and happy life together!"

Sighing, I feel Chakotay shift. Then I hear him ask still groggy in sleep. "You okay? Want to talk about it?"

Turning in his arms to look at him I say. "I was just remembering Mothers words from today! I was thinking how fortunate we are to have her."

Kissing the top of my head, he pulls me closer in his embrace, and adds as he drifts off to sleep. "Things will stay interesting in our life with Mrs. Janeway!"

Chuckling I knew he was right and I closed my eyes and drifted off to sleep!

DONE